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Mmk Koreans are moody and other thoughts

See the above. Lina's been in great mood lately. I dunno if its because of spring or if there's something going on in her personal life that's changed that. But its been a good week generally. I'll bet you W20,000 she'll be back in a bad mood next week. Mind you, I'm basing this over-generalizing statement on many accounts I have read and heard from my friends. It's all that stoic, bottling-up. If they'd just let themselves genuinely bitch about stuff (and I don't mean the attention-seeking whining they do sometimes - that's namely teenage/young girls), I think they would release a lot of that stress. But its not acceptable, so they don't. Plus, living with stress is second nature, so I doubt they do much to help themselves with that. I don't know if it's because of their somewhat more passive nature or what, but Koreans really (generally) don't do much to help themselves. On the bus in the morning, its always packed with school boys and its usually quite warm. I'm there in a shirt and light jacket and they're still wearing heavier coats, just sitting there, sweating, not opening any windows or taking off any layers. Most people in other parts of the world would take some kind of action to make themselves more comfortable. Not any person I have ever seen on the bus has ever done anything to alleviate their own discomfort. It wouldn't be a far stretch to imagine that there are other situations, like being stressed out, in which they just suffer and don't change anything. This, I do not understand.

Planned to go to Hongdae again with Myung Sun, but it's parents' day soon and since her father will be away that day they're celebrating early. So that's our plans canceled. Probably I'll go to Sinchon to take pictures of the cherry blossom trees since it'll be the last weekend the flowers will be on them.

Frustrated with the lack of time and space to do much physical activity, I'm going to go all the way to Incheon Grand Park to rent a bike and ride around. Its almost as if I've forgotten what its like to really use my muscles.

Sometimes, I have some really great days here and it makes me sad to think that I'll be leaving soon. But then I remember what a struggle it is cooking decent food for myself, living in a window-less box, trying to get myself to exercise in said window-less box, how it takes at least a half hour to get anywhere that I want to go, how much I dislike certain aspects of being a teacher, trying to get lesson information out of Lina when she's having a less-than-amazing day.

There's a lot going on in Korea, it's a very exciting place to live. But I actually do a lot less. Even when I'm jobless and living at home, I have so much more access to things I enjoy. I have a feeling I'm going to need to remind myself of that once I get home. My feelings about home have been evolving over the last month, and I know it won't be all roses. Just the other week my dad showed me my room on webcam; strangely enough I hadn't thought about my room at all, but at suddenly seeing it, I nearly panicked. You do forget lots of things about home when you've been away for this long. Seeing my bedroom, my very personal space that I've  basically lived my life in, just flooded me. It's not nostalgic, its a sudden blast of a psychological reaction. I don't know how else to describe it, but it was my first taste of real reverse-culture shock. I wasn't like that when I left Germany. Well, it was but only for a brief  five minute panic attack when I stepped into my room again for the first time, and it had been building and building in the car ride home, which had been so surreal it felt like I was tripping on something. But it was kind of mild; noticeable, but mild. I don't know how I'll react this time around, but I'm hoping my jaunt through Europe will help ease the transition.

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Christina Again

Going home is always so bizarre for me. Granted I don't have a room with lots of memories, my mom moved when I left for college, and I never did have a room at my dad's, unless of course you count the pull-out sleeper sofa (I don't!) Anyways, just being home in general is odd. The familiar smells that aren't really familiar anymore, pictures, rooms, furniture, everything, its like it was familiar, but not really anymore. Granted we move constantly now. In May we'll live in the fifth place in the last (almost) five years! Hopefully we stay there for a bit, though.

I'm sure you'll transition back easier than you may expect, although you may have to redecorate your room since you yourself have changed so much! Just be thankful you can redecorate as you please, I have to compete with Sean's tastes, which are very different than my own. Well, in my opinion, his taste is just wrong haha, when it comes to EVERYTHING. Clothes, home decor, all of it!

Take care, travel safe, and stay in touch!

Re: Christina Again

I will indeed. And yeah, I've read some stories about people having a much easier time with the transition than they expected. I figure I'll expect the worst and then it'll be great when I realize its not as bad as I thought haha.